Working Man's Blues

I stole the title from a Bob Dylan song. The song is actually called "Walking Man's Blues #2". This is the best song from his latest album. It's really amazing to see a old timer like Dylan topping the charts with a new album. The album was quite good, and I've been listening to this song a lot.

The other day, me and two of my friends suddenly decided that all of us should learn to play the guitar. We also decided that I'll be contacting "Piklu" bhai (as I already know him) and we'll request him to give us some guitar lessons on a regular basis. We decided against a professional teacher as they apparently are not sincere enough and they don't have the personal touch that'd make the lessons interesting.

Almost 2-3 days have passed, and I still didn't contact our prospective teacher. I don't know whether this'll ever happen. I've been wanting to learn the guitar for quite some time, but I never took any real effort for doing so.

Today I met my pals again, and we decided to go on a trip to bandorbon during Eid vacation. I think this'll be another fun trip. I don't know whether I'll be able to write down my experience. I am going through a writer's block when it comes to writing travel logs. I couldn't write about any of my last two or three journeys.

The latter part of this month will be terribly hectic for me. I have a workshop on 14th-15th, an overseas trip from 17th to 21st, and exams and term paper submission during 28th and 29th.

Meanwhile, I am not getting any peace of mind. For different inexplicable reasons, I just can't live in peace. One of my friend is saying I'm doing "Dukkho Bilash", which can be explained as "feeling sad without any apparent reason". Maybe that is true, but I can't get rid of this empty feeling that haunts me every now and then. As long as I'm engrossed in work, everything seems fine. As long as I'm with my friends, things are fine. As long as I'm playing games or listening to music, everything seems fine.

But I just can't stand the empty room and nothing to do state. The ghost of loneliness casts a long shadow; a shadow big enough to engulf me in agony.

I've preferred to stride alone for the last 26 odd years, and it is actually ironic if I say that I feel lonely now. I shouldn't be feeling too bad for being single at this age as I never really took much initiative to get double.

So be it....life goes on. Wise men say "Don't seek love, let love seek you out".

Ah well, since when did I started giving wise men a damn?

By the way, I am a working man, and I have every right to have my own blues!

A Little Talking

In most cases, the burden of expectation is too heavy to bear. So, never expect too much out of anything. I've seen in my life, when I approached someone or something with minimal expectations, the results often came out as satisfactory.

So that was today's learning. I went out with little expected, and came out with a lot of things.

I bought a damn expensive sound card sometime ago. It paid off, quite nicely. I am discovering new and hidden pieces of music from songs that I've been listening for the last 10 years or so. It's quite a remarkable experience. It might sound a bit incredible, but I am actually discovering "previously unheard" or "unnoticed" portions of my favorite songs. Be it the sound of bass, or the drumming, or just a vocal touch--this is a unique experience.

Now I know why these surround sound speakers and professional sound cards are so expensive. Every single paisa is worth the 18k I've spent for the speakers and the sound card.

You may call me an extravagant spender, or you can also go further and label me as a reckless spender, but I don't regret this expenditure.

Anyways, I just noticed that another year is just on the verge of getting ended. What did I do in this year? I did a lot, actually. This was one of the most active years of my life. Surprisingly, I actually got a lot of things done this year, and I'm still looking forward to getting some other things done in the last 27 days.

27 days is a long time.......