November Rain...

Yesterday, Bangladesh won their first test match. I think they won quite easily, and the opponent cannot be called a formidable one, in any way. However, a win's a win, and the records will not highlight the fact that most players in the Zimbabwe team were inexperienced. It was a great day for our nation, and I am looking forward to seeing more such great days.

My organization is the official sponsor of the team, and I expected some sort of celebration. But strangely, nothing happened. We have a TV in our 7th floor conference room. After the 9th wicket fell, a lot of people (including myself) rushed towards the room for being a part of the historic moment. Well, that's all about it--some cheers, hand clapping and applauds after Ashraful took the catch. Within 5 minutes, the place was cleared out, and I went out to lunch with 3 of my friends, who are also my colleagues.

It's good to have classmates in the same organization, and it gets better when you are in friendly terms with them. We often spend time chit chatting (during our breaks), we work in cross functional teams, we have informal discussions about the company, we share our expectations, future plans and disappointments..and a lot more. The source of envy is the guy who recently got married. Very few of my male batch mates (I am talking about my IBA batch mates here) got married. Some more will get married this year. Maybe within an year or two, I'll become a chachchu or something...thanks to my friends in Uni...hehe.

For the last few days, I am having a feeling of anticipation. It's like I am waiting for something to happen. This feeling got a bit subsided since yesterday, and I am yet to confirm the reason behind it. I mean the discovery process will be twofold. I'll have to first figure out what I was anticipating, and secondly, I'll have to be sure that my feeling of anticipation has subsided and that element is the reason behind it! So if I convert this situation in to a model:

Y= the feeling of anticipation (dependent variable)

X= the reason behind the anticipation (independent variable)

a= some incident, that got rid of the anticipation (!)

so y=f(x)

At this point, I just realized that I tied my bonds with the better part of mathematics 7 years ago. No, no...I am not that old, and neither did I study in a noobish subject. I had math courses during my BBA, but those courses did not give me that much insight in to the true form of maths. In my current life, I see only BBA's around. I mean each and every guy I interact with has some sort of business degree. Those who don't are either engineers or finance people. And none of'em are my friends. I have a friend circle, where nobody's a business graduate. That's my school friend's group. I really enjoy the time I spend with them, as there's no "job/business/revenue/salary" blah blah blah discussion over there. When the people from IBA gets together, the discussions eventually ends up to job satisfaction, salary, boss, etc. topics, which is sickening. It's like 5 days is week was not enough for all the job crap. I used to have an IRC pal hangout group, but that group is barely existent now. I am only left with my AG group. I have minimal contact with people outside these groups. I used to have a very good friend, with whom I had regular interaction. But I am in the verge of losing that friend, too.

I don't enjoy visiting my relatives. This is not only due to the fact that most of them are either older than me, or younger...but the more prevalent fact is "difference", and I can't blame people for this difference.

I have noticed one thing. Many writers write for others. They always keep the audience in mind. They avoid writing too much personal stuff. But I write for myself. I have passed a significant portion of my life, and I don't think I will become a writer. However, I did spend time as a journalist, for two magazines. I even had that 2 year working experience in my CV, and it helped me in getting the current job of mine. Yeah the job must be sweet, as I get some time writing. But actually it is not. When I am busy, I am busy like hell...and when I'm not, I have nothing to do at all. This sux...but I have nothing to do here. Writing was never that much of a difficult task for me. Throughout my life, I have experienced writer's block for only a few times.

I have to reply to a few mails, again. But I am experiencing a writer's block over there! How peculiar this is.

It's 3 PM..the worst time of the day. My boss was not in office the whole day. She just came in, and I am quite sure that I will have to face her within the next 2 or 3 hours. For your info, these meetings are never sweet. I would like to tell you how she looks like, but why should I create envy? (a)

Anyways....not feeling like writing anymore, at this moment. As I said, I am mostly a selfish writer. I like writing about myself more, than anything else. I also like reading my own writings. I still look back at the articles I wrote for Shaptahik 2000 and Computer Times. Sigh....those good ol' days.

"You can't take me"--this is a loser msn nick, and I am not using it. If nobody's taking you, it's not the world that is incompetent, it's you who are not competent enough to get "in" to anywhere or anything.

Heh.

Bye...