Coffee and Caffeine

For unknown reasons, I'm feeling cheerful and happy from the morning. It's a Wednesday, and still one more day left for the week to end. I received a bad news in the morning...my beloved site amadergaan.com has been shut down for indefinite period. Here's what I see:

the end

After serving about a million of visitors from all over the world for the last two and half years, we are forced to shut down (indefinitely) due to lack of finances. We were struggling to meet the server bills for quite some time and donations were few & far between. So we decided to close the server until we are able to find a permanent financial source and have a steady flow of donations to run the server. We don't see this as setback and we don't want all our visitors to think that this is the end of AG. We hope to return soon, sooner than anyone expects and your support would go a long way. If you have information/ideas about possible financial source(s), please do contact us. You can donate to AG via Paypal as well (use the link below). Donations would help us to restart the server and site soon. We would really appreciate your support.If you do not have a Paypal account and would still like to contribute contact us for more payment option.We will be back. Count On us.

I don't want to spend my blogging time talking on AG, and ruining the good mood I am in, so rather not talk about it.

I slept late yesterday (to be more precise, today). When the contact between my head and the pillow finally got established, it was 1:40 AM. The evening was different, to some extent. I came home at around 7:15 PM. Usually I take some snacks and sit in front of the PC and do the usual bit, i.e. listening to songs, playing games, browsing, posting in forums, blogging and chatting on msn. But yesterday I was so tired and exhausted, that I had my snacks and went to bed. I was listening to "Toss The Feathers" by Corrs, a wonderful instrumental. Then came my dad, and destroyed my mood by sitting in front of the PC. I was running Windows XP, and AutoCAD is installed in my other OS, Win ME. He restarted the PC and started working. This has been happening for quite some time...."The Battle for PC". My dad's weapon here being "I am working...you only play and spend useless time in internet". This is one argument which I cannot counter, cause it's true. But you know what? After spending 8-10 busy and dynamic hours at Office, listening to some good music, and all the other stuff I have mentioned earlier is probably the best thing I can do.

All this crap, coming from a 24 year old chap might sound pathetic. There are people, who always say that my parents don't want to acknowledge the fact that I have grown up. They still try to control the individual, who now has more than 1 years full time job experience in the toughest department of one of the toughest organizations of Bangladesh. He is responsible for approximately 1 million subscribers (me and Nafiz bhai runs the prepaid product development team, which is responsible for the 2 million plus prepaid subs of GP) and he is yet to fail an assignment.

Just came across a funny condom AD....it says:

"To all those who use our comeptitor's products: Happy Father's Day"

Kinda raw, yet funny.

Back to morning...it's only 9:30 AM, and the day has just began. Yeah, you can see that I don't have much to do this morning. The last 3 days were really hectic, and I had to accomplish some mammoth tasks. The problem with my boss is, she will expect the best output without giving adequate time. And sometimes, she'd ask for analyses, for which we need data. Without good data, how is it possible for us to provide concrete analytical findings?

Enough grudging about my job. I am not actially disappointed with my job. Something is better than nothing, and I get paid quite well. I entered this organization without any full time working experience. I did, however, have some part-time work experience. However, I never imagined that those experiences would help me in any way, when I applied here using their online job application system (www.bdjobs.com/gp). Strangely enough, I was asked many questions regarding my journalist(!) life during my interview. I had a lot of fun writing for Computer Times and Shaptahik 2000.

When I was a kid, I used to maintain a personal diary. But I quit writing when I found out that the I can't actually write the things that I wanted to write. As an example, one day I wanted to write about that flirting session me and my cousin had with the girl next house. Her's and our's home is divided by a wall, which belongs to them. Me and my cousin was playing badminton (as far as I remember), and she was watching us play. After so many years (that was in year 1990 O guess), I don't remember the whole incident, but we had some discussions, and we kind of become good friends. She'd always watch us play, and we'd occasionaly stop playing and chat with her. Times changed...she got restricted inside, we grew up, found the arcades and deserted the playgrounds....the cruelty of the world. She was always around, but I didn't have much conversations with her. My cousin was always interested in her, and he ended up getting her number and doing a lot more. I was quite surprised to discover her in NSU, again in year 2001. I talked to her after at least 7-8 years.

I got two bosses, and both are outta station today. My colleague tries to act bossy at times, cause he's the senior. But in paper, he has the same rank as mine. But I, too, like to make him feel special by always acting as the harmless junior. He is a hard working guy, and he gets less than he deserves, and vice versa. Didn't understand? Well he gets less money and more flak. The same goes for me as well....:s

I can keep on writing forever, but I don't wish to. I had 99 posts in my amadergaan blog (in almost 3 months) so you can see that I'm a talkative guy.

Let's finish this entry here. If I don't have much to do today, I might take up the keyboard again. In yesteryears, writers use to take up the pen...nowadays we take up the keyboard...lol...cool evolution, right?

Joe Satriani, Marty Friedman.....listening to'em right now.

bye n tc..